Beautiful Mistake

The monkeys are on my back
Jeering once again
What a silly little trap
To be back here again

I tore down the walls
Freed myself from slavery
But still the demons are creeping in
Damn I can never win

What a beautiful mistake
To think I could make her work
A moth to a flame
Still a selfish jerk

I tore down the walls
Freed myself from slavery
But still the demons are creeping in
Damn I can never win

She took a year of my life
A year as her friend
Silly romantic me
Thought it could be more
A delusional relationship

My need nearly consumed us both
Can’t form a friendship on lies
No matter how hard you try
Can’t form a friendship on need
It will not be at the right speed

I tore down the walls
Freed myself from slavery
But still the demons are creeping in
Damn I can never win

I forgive her
Her magnetism could not be helped

But I can not forgive myself
For being someone else

When you lie every day
It becomes all you say
I’m fine
Everything’s okay

I can forgive and forget
Two people running at different speeds
Will never be in sync
So why force it?
Just let the damn thing free
To blow in the wind

I tore down the walls
Freed myself from slavery
But still the demons are creeping in
Damn I can never win

~ by ambersbrainisinsane on December 11, 2008.