Fire In My Gut

There’s a fire in my gut that I can’t erase
There’s a fire in my gut and it’s called the human race
We can’t change people no matter how hard we try
We can only reach for the stars, and hope it becomes sky

I didn’t know before
The full extent of the score
But my brain has betrayed me
Left me bruised and bare
And now I know that I will always need care

We may be God’s children
But I still feel displaced
An outsider in my own family
She does not belong here
She is not one of our race

I may be crazy, but this part does not define
It’s an illness, not a cancer
But yes I call it mine
I own it proudly
It is so good to know these things

I’m just trying to find my way
Back to the girl I knew
And if she’s gone forever
Guess I’ll start anew

I’m down on my knees
Begging for inner peace
To keep the demon down
Otherwise she would surround
Me in lies
That I would never escape

We may be God’s children
But I still feel displaced
An outsider in my own family
She does not belong here
She is not one of our race

The prison of my mind is too close a reality
For awhile I felt fine
Until this knocked me on my back

We can not attack
What we can not see
At least I can’t do that
So the doctors did it for me

I’m just trying to find my way
Back to the girl I knew
And if she’s gone forever
Guess I’ll start anew

~ by ambersbrainisinsane on December 11, 2008.